Friday, August 12, 2011
Its been a while
To those of you that have read my blog, you would have noticed that it was shut down for a few months. Much as changed in my life. I changed jobs and moved closer to my Domme. I had so much going on in my life for those few months with seeking work, finding a place to live, moving out, moving in, and then getting adjusted to new surroundings, new co-workers, and new ways of doing the 'same' things. I had no time for blogging. But things are settling and life is good. I am now so much closer to Katie and that is a wonderful gift for me and for her.
What I found interesting when I renewed my blog and took the time to read the posts from a few bloggers that I enjoy reading is the change in one's life over a period of time. Reading a summers' worth of blogs is like reading ones' annual Christmas letter where one see an overview of a friends life over the past year.
One blogger has fallen significantly deeper into submission and under the firmer hand of his wife who seems to be asserting her dominance even more. I wish him well. Another has abandoned the D/s lifestyle for a time but recently rekindled their relationhip as Domme and sub. Others have changed very little. One seems to be still wanting more from his wife, others are happily content with life and simply write about those daily events and thoughts of their D/s marriage.
As for me, Katie is slowly ratcheting down the screws, ever so slightly. Of course I hope to be under her firmer controlling hand but that will be left for her to decide. I can see that she is becoming more content as a Domme. She is more comfortable having me as her service submissive, no longer feeling guilty when I head to the kitchen for my hour or preparing, serving, and cleaning up after every meal. She relaxes and waits for me to call her to the table or bring each meal to her. Laundry and vacuuming and general house cleaning has become my permanent responsibility. She now walks past items she'd normally pick up and leaves them for me to cart to where they need to be taken. I find that I long to hear her words asserting herself as my domme: Words like "pick up that box and put it in the pantry," or "Im going to relax while you make us dinner," or "Go make me breakfast and bring it to me in bed," or "Vacuum the rugs and mop the floors and keep yourself busy straightening the house while I go have a drink with my girlfriend." I would love to hear those words of dominance. They push my submissive buttons.
I'm sure that day will come as I can see her changing. She is becoming more comfortable in her Dominance and a confident woman is so sexy. Seeing her living as a Domme makes me proud. It draws me close to her. It fills some inner part of me that seeks to be associated with such a woman. I see Katie becoming that woman. She's not there yet, but she is further along the path than at the beginning of the year. Her love for me is without end but her attitude about who she is and who I am is becoming clearer. Next step (I hope), verbalizing and asserting herself daily - reminding me that we are not equals but reminding her too, that she has the right to control my life as she chooses. I wonder if we will arrive at that juncture. What a wonderful step that would be.