Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Submissive Habits: Shaving
Since I first asked Katie to assume leadership she has required specific things of me. Today I want to focus on her expectation that I shave my genitals and buttocks daily. She is a woman that doesn't enjoy lots of body hair, at least down there and told me soon after I became her sub that she wanted me to shave, first my balls and then all of hair around my penis, soon after she told me that she wanted all the hair on my ass shaved as well.
Now when I shower I spend more time tending to that small area of my body than any other. I strive to make my skin perfectly smooth. When I massage her body and sit naked on the back of her legs she doesn't want to feel the prickly hairs that should have been removed earlier. When she touches me each night she wants to feel smoothness, not stubble.
The act of deliberately taking pride in keeping my skin completely hairless has helped me to realize that my genitals are for her. I am doing this for her. I am shaving and making my body, or at least this part of my body a pleasant and pleasing offering for her to enjoy. I was thinking about this the other day when I was showering. I would have never taken up this aspect of personal hygiene had she not demanded I do so. Nor would I have taken pride in shaving, not only to meet a requirement of hers, but also to shave with the intent to please. It's that aspect of the process that promotes submissiveness. Checking my skin to ensure I removed all body hair BECAUSE I know she will enjoy the feel is a conscious effort on my part to please the woman whose word I now obey.
Now, I love shaving. I enjoy the look and feel of my genitals. Her values have become my values and that is at the heart of what she wants. She wants me not only to obey but to embrace her values, to see her ways, to willingly follow and obey because I want to do all I can to please her.
Tomorrow morning I will repeat the process but for now, I will go to bed knowing that her hands will be all over me and when she enjoys the feel of my genitals it is because I took pride in preparing properly. Later when she tells me to massage her, she will only feel the smooth skin of my buttocks against her shaven legs. She won't comment. She probably won't notice. And that is good because not noticing means I have done my duty by not having razor stubble that would otherwise disturb and be counter productive to my goal of helping her relax and fall asleep to the touch of my hands. I love 'acting as if' because I want to please and receive the approval of a job well done.