Monday, May 28, 2012
Katie and I live a very typical life. We are two people that are in love and that is reflected in how we view one another as well as in how we interact. We love being together and when we aren’t we communicate often. I love to call her to talk. I text her often. I think of her constantly. When with her we are a couple that is obviously in love. I think we are a perfect match emotionally, sexually, intellectually, etc.
But we are not your typical couple. I am a submissive and owned man. The other day Katie grabbed my cock and squeezed it saying ‘this is mine.’ What a nice thought. Yes, I am hers in every way. My life is now an open book to her. In many ways I have given up control and now trust her to decide on my behalf. When she tells me it’s bed time I go to bed. When she tells me she’s hungry, we eat. When she tells me she wants to paint the hallway, I paint the hallway. I am hers.
But I am human and so is she. What I mean by that is that given the choice I will migrate to the easy way out. I will do less than more. A few weeks ago while driving and listening to the radio I pulled over and sent myself this text “when u decide 2 lower your standards people will give u less, not more”.
How true that statement is. We live up to the expectations dictated to us and don’t give a hair more. It’s true with respect to how students perform at school, how much an athlete will put out, and in the realm of D/s. If I am honest I don’t give Katie my all because she doesn’t expect my all. She doesn’t’ expect my total obedience. She doesn’t ever really dominate me and I think if she did every now and then she would get so much more out of me because she would instill in me (at a more conscious level) that I am an owned man there to love, please, and serve her. I think if she took a few hours once a month or once every other month to really make me serve her, really humble me, really make me see that I am so much less than her (with respect to power and status) that it would both be arousing for the both of us as well as helpful in moving us forward in our relationship.
Now I am going to send this draft to Katie for approval but I can be almost certain that a question going through her mind upon reading this is ‘how can I do that?’ How would you help her in formulating fun, devious, teachable things to do that will help instill both her dominance and my submission.? Love to hear your ideas.