I've been in a wonderful conversation via email with another submissive guy for the past few months. He is hoping his wife will deny him longer and asked if I thought Katie might do the same for me (as in 6-12 months), so I asked her. She only told me that anything is possible, so who knows, it may be til Christmas or maybe this time next year when she gives me the OK once again. I will just have to wait and see.
The emotional roller coaster of being denied puzzles me. I think much of the desire to want to orgasm is dependent on the attention that she gives me by teasing. I left her for 20 days and found that I ached for her during the first half of my trip but during the latter part things 'just were'. I think the ache had to do with me missing her, missing her touch, missing our closeness, missing our times of intimacy. When reality finally settled in, I accepted that I wouldn't have access to her and my mind finally calmed and in fact I hardly had an erection that final week we were apart.
So the days will mount again. I may not post much during the next few weeks as life will become exceedingly busy for me but may try to write a few posts and delay their postings during this period.
Till next time