Way back when she hoped that she wouldn't end up becoming Katie the bitch but rather remain Katie the one who loves me. Now, that is not a worry. No, she has not become a bitch during this transition of power but she has definitely changed in the way that she views us.
We have a few pets and she will feed the dog leftover cat food that she just loves to lick, even if there are only a few morsels on the paper plate she gives her. Sometimes the plate is left tattered and torn into many pieces. My role of course is to clean up after the dog the next time I pass by that plate. When I am gone for a day or two, those plates pile up. Katie use to pick them up but now leaves them for me. Why? Just because she can.
She spends less time asking me this or that, and has begun to tell me more what she wants of me. This has even extended into our sleep time. When she rolls my way she has been waking me to tell me to roll away as well so she can cuddle behind me. A few times she has turned way and told me to roll to hold her. It's just a little thing, yet it's 'another' thing that has changed.
I use to have a separate credit card but no longer own one in my name only. The two cards I have list my name but she is the primary owner of the account. I still have a separate bank account but even that may change soon. I don't know when she will want me to inform my employer to automatically deposit my earnings into her account but I'm fairly certain the time is getting near.
I overheard Katie talking to one of her girlfriends. During their conversation she mentioned that I was preparing dinner for us. It was a small thing but she is much more comfortable letting her friends know that I am the cook in the home - something that she use to do all the time.
Katie's adult daughter often comes over to visit. She knows too that I am the one that fixes meals, that will fetch her drinks, that offers her food or waits on the two of them while the ladies chat. Again, these are just small things yet the list continues to grow as Katie continues to change.
This morning she ruined my orgasm, looked at the cum on my abdomen and quietly said, "that's for you to clean up and eat." It use to be awkward for her to tell me that but now it seems so natural for her to remind me what is expected of me when she allows me to orgasm.
I read two posts today on the topics of female authority. Kathy from Femdom 101 spoke about altering Wills that would impact her husband even after she died (if she passed on before him). Think about that if you are a sub. That is a profound thing - that Kathy has the right to rule her husband even in her eternal absence! We have yet to write our wills but I wonder how Katie will approach that when we finally do.
The second post was from the Worshiping your Wife blog. The topic was men changing their names to their wives upon marriage. I don't think Katie will tell me she wants to do that, but if she did, it would be a hard thing for me to do. Why? Because it's so contrary to how things are done. The cat would be out of the bag with friends and family that we indeed are living a life that is different than theirs. I'm sure that once the changes were made and some time for the new norm to settle in, it would be fine but initially that would be a hard thing to do.
I'm digressing a bit but the point of the post is that our relationship is not stagnant. At times it appears to me that it is, that we adopted a D/s lifestyle made several changes in how we live and now live that way. But that is not so. Yes we made lots of changes initially but changes continue to be made. Katie continues to change. She is becoming the woman that I kept telling her I wanted her to become but one in which I had no idea what she would actually be like should she change. But changing she is. I think I like the change but there are times when I think she's just going to make me do things, or tell me to do things I am not going to like, approve of or enjoy. I wonder how I will feel about her when those times come - and coming they are. They always do. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with it and take it like a man :)
Til next time,