On December 15th she gave me my $20 of spending money that she now does twice monthly. Now that money doesn’t include gas, which she has instructed me put on the credit card, but it does limit my ability to spend money extensively. Basically I am without money to spend freely. I use it to grab a snack here and there but otherwise, have nothing. To be honest, it’s really not a big deal to give her this control. She is the one paying the bills so she needs to know how much money we have. She’s the one that decides what we spend and how we spend it and I understand that. It all makes perfectly logical sense. The only time I struggle with this is when a friend asks me out to do something. If I have enough of my allowance left to share a meal or get a drink I’m OK. Otherwise I have to call Katie and see if I can use the credit card and if not, I decline the offer.
So, I marry on the 31st of the month and she will have her first of my forever deposits beginning the day before on the 30th. She has my submission. She’s about to legalize it. She has me in chastity. She denies me….. it will be day 152 since I’ve last orgasmed when we marry, so she is firm control of our sex life, and now she has financial control. You may think I’m nuts to give her all this power but there is a sense of structure, and peace in doing so. I feel completely free inside even though I own nothing. It’s all hers, yet she is all mine to care for and love. What more could a man want or need?