Wednesday, July 3, 2013
The saying, absence makes the heart grow fonder is so true. I’ve been away from home for a month and away from Katie for a little over two weeks. That’s about two weeks too long anymore. I dealt with a long distance dating relationship where we were apart for 4-10 weeks for way too long. But those days are past. I’m married and I’m hers. She owns me and it’s with her that I belong.
I’ve noticed since being home just how much I’ve missed her. She is so damn hot. I could look at her all day long and never tire of it. I don’t know about you but don’t you like walking up the stairs to the bedroom or up the stairs in a shopping mall behind your woman? That sweet ass is looking right at you and it looks so very good. Whew, I better get a-hold of myself here. I’m going to get too worked up while sitting here in a Coffee Shop writing.
What I wanted to make note of was the difference in my attentiveness and submissiveness since arriving home a few days ago. I arrived home in the evening and we chatted and headed to bed early. Yes, we made love but before that Katie had me massage her for quite some time and after we made love, she had me massage her again until she had fallen asleep. While gone I read a post on the Worshipping your wife blog by Ms Amanda, a woman whose decision making, choices, and attitude I really admire. She made a comment about how she has moved from having her husband George sit on the sofa with her and massage her feet after work to now having him sit on the floor and do the same. I don’t know why but I immediately felt as if I needed to text Katie and ask her if I could stand by her bed, tuck her in and offer to massage her every night. I did ask and she agreed she’d like that. And so that has happened for the past two nights. She loves to be touched but sometimes just doesn’t make use of my services because she thinks I’m tired, or she’s just tired, or she totally forgets because other things are on her mind. Well this way, the offer will always be there and it will be interesting to see just how much more servicing I do in the dark of the night sitting cross-legged while she lies facing me and enjoys my attentiveness.
Typically we start that way, and then she moves to her stomach, and then turns to her other side. I just move to different positions so I can take care of her and caress her. Last night it took me about an hour until she was just about asleep.
I want to be careful to watch for changes in the days ahead with respect to my attitude and desire to serve. Being away makes my service-chores feel somewhat new once more. But they will inevitably become routine as the novelty wears off. It is for that very reason that I asked if I could intentionally wait by her side of the bed and tuck her in and ask if she’d like a massage. She was out for awhile yesterday and typically when she comes home I will greet her if I happen to be by the door. If not, I don’t stop to welcome her. I want to change that. I want to be there when she enters. I want to because I know that she’d like it and it’s nothing more than me making the effort to stop what I’m doing to be there when she arrives. Now I understand that I won’t do it every time but for those times that I know she is almost home, it feels only proper for me to wait to welcome her properly and take care of whatever needs to be done with respect to bringing items from the car in or taking her coat when the weather turns colder.
I love Katie and I want her to feel that love, not just when we are between the sheets and things get all steamy but during all of the other times of the day. Maybe if I do, we will be able to generate even more steam at just the right time :)