Then to cap it off, Katie told me it was time to go to bed. I unlocked, pulled the sheets down and waited for her to come into the bedroom where I was to offer my services by giving her a massage – which I knew she’d want. Rather than asking the usual, “May I give you a massage tonight, Miss Katie” question, I asked “will you be requiring me to give you a massage?” Of course she answered yes, and yes, I made a subtle change from the routine by not really asking if I could serve but instead asking if she ‘required’ me to serve. I just didn’t want to ask her something I really didn’t want to do. But she wanted one and so I complied – kind of – for the next hour. After 15 or 20 minutes of a genuine massage I did the “one hand propping up my head and the other giving her a half-hearted – half-assed massage”. Katie eventually fell asleep so it wasn’t like she didn’t enjoy it and it wasn’t pleasant to her but I was irritated and didn’t approach this time as one that we both treasure as one of the best parts of our day.
The following morning I told Katie of my feelings and poor attitude the previous day. Katie told me she thought something was up but noted ‘but you pushed through it and did all I wanted you to do.’
“Yes I did, but I didn’t want to.”
“But you did” she commented once more, “and you got over it.”
I did, slowly and prior that conversation we made love that may have helped in getting me refocused as to the woman that I have the PRIVILAGE of serving each day. The old pouting soon dissolved but to be honest, it was a bit difficult to get back into the swing of things. During the previous evening, a comment from the Uniquely Rika text kept coming to mind. I couldn’t remember what she said precisely, but it was a comment directed to woman noting that sooner or later ‘this’ day will come. The ‘this day’ referred to a time when a man who committed to submission would tire of it. That was me. That was where I was – kind of. I didn’t refuse to serve but I had an attitude issue that I had to fight through. It was a first for me since we married and only the second time that I can remember since I asked if she would allow me to serve her several years ago. Sadly,I’m sure it won’t be the last.
Then last night, three days after the above incident, I was hit by the thought of the profoundness of the vow I made to FOREVER submit. The idea of submission sounded so fun, so exciting, and so erotic (in some ways) when I wrote my vow. Now that I made that promise – as part of my marriage vow, it’s a ‘forever’ promise and one that will always be. There is no out. There is no going back. There is only the life of living under her direction, forever serving her, forever caring for her, forever putting her first, and cooking for her forever! Doing laundry forever! Being her submissive husband forever! Wow!
Maybe what struck me was just how profound a promise is. I thought about a few men that I’ve had some contact. Dual Purpose is a submissive man in his 60’s that has commented on past posts. He has been a slave to a woman for over 40 years. Ms Kathy’s husband, John, has been serving her for many years. S’s slave has also been a submissive slave for quite some time.
There are men out there like these that have lived this life but most submissive men that either have blogs or comment on them seem to be relatively new to this life. I wonder how many men in their 20’s and 30’s will still be obediently submissive in ten years? My guess is not many. But there are some, and I hope to be one that will join that group as time, fortune and health allows. Will you too be one of those men? Will you join me on this journey of being a life-long submissive? Do you have the courage to make a promise to your wife and sacredly profess your submission to her FOREVER? If not, what is it that you want? Why the hesitation? Why the reservation? What are you afraid of?
If you know that your wife appreciates your submission today, last week, maybe even all last year, why won’t you make a promise to defer to her until death do us part? It’s something to think about, especially if you can see the value that submission to her has in your relationship. Ladies, if you are reading this and have a man that has submitted to you, why don’t you initiate a discussion that solidifies your WLM or FLR permanently? What better way for you to keep and protect the man you love and enjoy lovingly leading the two of you into your middle and latter years of life.
I’m not certain if the two separate incidents are tied together. I’m sure all men get tired of serving just as dominant women get tired of leading and deciding. The difference is that a dominant woman can tell her submissive man to decide on her behalf if she wants, whereas the submissive man can never expect her to serve him. Do you have these times where you want to give up or do you ever have that Déjà vu moment where because you’ve made a similar promise to serve your dominant partner forever? Have you contemplated the possibility that you will live out your days serving the woman with you now, until death do us part? Love to hear your thoughts.