My employment salary is deposited directly into her checking account and any checks I receive I give to her when I get home. It is an arrangement that I really enjoy personally. I enjoy being free of having to pay the bills, worrying about what to do with excess funds etc. As Katie's sub, she has taken that responsibility from me and takes care of all of our bills and makes most all decisions financial. I like that.
What is different however has come the understanding that I have no deciding power. I don't decide if we will drive through the night to get home or stay at a hotel. I don't decide if we will go here or there for a vacation. I don't decide if we will go to this concert or that ballgame or that outing. I don't do that because I have no funds from which to pull from. In a way it creates a feeling of helplessness. In a big way it creates a feeling of dependence. I don't have decision power to give money to kids in need. I don't have funds to buy this big item or that smaller item. If I want something I need to ask first and that is what Katie has told me I am open to do. Me, I tend to not want to do that. Much of me would rather do without than ask.
It's a different way to live from the way I grew up and lived for much of my adult life. As the primary breadwinner and holder of the purse, I purchased items when I wanted. Now I don't. Now I can't. Now the decision is not mine. I mean I have no purchasing power outside of transportation fuel and a little spending money that doesnt' last very long unless I am quite careful. As Katie's submissive I have learned to depend on her. I've learned to make suggestions that impact us financially. I have learned to do without the unnecessary frills unless I ask permission. It's a different way to live. I wouldn't trade it for my old life but it is different.
If I could change one thing it would be having permission to treat Katie more often to little expressions of love and kindness. Other than that, I am a content yet very dependent husband on my Mistress wife.