This blog is about my service-submission to Katie. When we married I promised to obey, submit, adore and love. Obedience required me to give control of sex, money, time, and decision-making to Katie. That choice has deepened our relationship, increased our openness and brought the two of us so very close. Submission to Katie requires effort but it also focuses my energy and mind completely on her. I hope the thoughts here help you to consider a FLR. It may be the best choice you've ever made.
Saturday, August 13, 2016
God I love it when she actually leads! In a few minutes she
is about to head out with a friend for a few hours and is upstairs getting
ready. Just before she did she went through a short list of things she wanted
me to do. “And do you want me to mow the back yard too?”
I was told not to because it’s so darn hot outside
today. Anyway, when she came down she
said, “you are not to do stuff outside until after I get home.”
I know it’s just a small thing but I can’t get enough of her
when she is direct. I mean what’s there to be afraid of? She’s looking out for
my best interests and knows I’ll go out and sweat and work if left to my own
desires. I guess that’s not going to happen today.
On the flipside I had a long week of work last week – like
up at 6 and not home until 10 or 11 at night. As was our pattern up until June,
I’d lock and stay locked until bedtime. Then summer came and for whatever
reason she allowed me to put the appliance away for a few months. At first it
was a wonderful change but I soon missed it. It was as if she was denying me
the ability to sacrifice on her behalf. It felt as if the leash had become too
lax and her attention much diminished. Yet after I had asked more than once if
she wanted me to lock and after I was told me she’d tell me when I was to put
it on again, I let it be and stopped asking. Her response didn’t change how I
felt. I still missed it. I still wished she would have told me to lock up if
for no other reason than for me to have the thought that I am kept only for her
firmly embedded in my mind.
I know I’m writing a post that has used the pronoun “I”
quite a bit. It’s not that I want our WLM to be about me. I don’t. However I do
want her to feel completely free to own me in an overt way that leaves no doubt
that I belong to her.
Last week with my earlier than usual start times I left for
work with her still asleep. I knew the routine had been to lock the week before
but I thought I’d leave it to her to tell me what she wanted. On Monday while
we talked on the phone midday she mentioned, “You didn’t put your appliance
“I know,” I answered, and left it at that. Why she didn’t
say the needed one more sentence of “make sure you don’t do it again” or “I
didn’t appreciate finding this here and not on you and expect you to lock every
morning,” I can’t say. But those words were never spoken and so on Tuesday I
again went to work free and easy. The pattern continued through Friday and so
when I awoke today (Saturday) and she was awake I texted, “lock?”
“LOL, Yea right” I answered.
Her response: “Lock it up.”
Ahh, finally!!! Directness. And so I’m secure and she’s
involved in my submission and has expressed her dominance once again. Now if
she will only do so without prompting when the next 100 opportunities arise I’ll
be a happy submissive.