Monday, April 16, 2018
Kneeling and looking up into her eyes
It’s been a few weeks since the D/s civil war in our home ended. The rebellion was subdued within 72 hours and I am once more the loving and grateful prisoner of my wonderful wife. In all seriousness, I can confess that things have mostly been restored and some progress made. She made a few changes in our marriage that have been good and I am hopeful she will pursue a few more things/persons. All in all things are better. I wanted to devote this post to one change that has been significant to us both.
If you have read the femdom 101 blog recently you are aware that Kathy devoted a few posts to a book written by Key Barrett. Katie and I read that book a month or so prior to Kathy’s posts. It was at Kathy’s suggestion we consider adding a‘pledge’ to our relationship. I reread Key's section on the topic a few times and gave the author’s premise some thought. A day or so later I wrote my own version of his suggested pledge and sent it to Katie via text. Her response nearly blew me away. “I love it!” she responded almost instantly.
We talked about adding this to our lifestyle as well as when in our typical day she wanted me to recite it. Katie decided mornings right after breakfast would be best. On that first day I found Katie sitting in the living room. As soon as I knelt she beamed and placed both hands on either side of my face. I’d be lying if I told you it didn’t feel awkward saying those words and I’d be lying if I told you those words had no effect on me. I’d also be lying if I told you they had no effect on my wife. Saying what I said was a pretty profound act and I could tell Katie was taken.
She decided I would be doing this daily. On that second day Katie again was seated and again I knelt but on the third morning she happened to be standing. I decided once more to kneel. That was a first. I’ve never knelt before my wife but it felt right although quite awkward. But by day three or four the saying of those words felt more normal and any awkwardness on my part was reduced because I knew Katie was on-board with this.
Not every day begins without interruptions and on one morning I found myself upstairs working. I received a text: "Make sure you say your pledge before you leave for work." Now that's getting a day off on the right foot! I've have missed one day since the inception of this into our lives. It’s been a good thing for us - a very good thing. It’s one thing to say in your heart, you will follow. It’s quite another to look your wife in the eye from a kneeling position and tell her. My pledge includes statements of what I promise to do: submit, obey, serve as well as affirming her for the woman she is and one I love.
I've come to treasure this brief moment in our day. Those words now hold meaning and I find those words coming to mind throughout the day as life happens. I may not be in the best of moods but I will remember the 'I'll obey you' part while at other times when I'm doing chores I'll think on the 'I love serving you' parts.
I wanted to write this to those who have never knelt and reaffirmed a promise. A promise might be your reaffirming of wedding vows or commemorating the day you first proposed to her. For me it is my desire to verbally declare my decision to submit and obey. Kneeling is a significant gesture. It’s not something normally done and so the rarity of it makes it special, especially when combined with heartfelt words.
Ladies, I can tell you this. My wife LOVES this. Katie, as you know, is reserved, quiet, somewhat shy, and traditionally raised. This is not something she is use to but from the day I first knelt I knew this struck a chord somewhere deep inside. Me offering myself and opening my heart - becoming vulnerable in a way that met a need in her - has made for a minute before life begins - where I express just how deep my love for her is.
More to come about the ‘new’ us later.